Today Is The First Day of September 2019

Today is the first day of September, and it officially marks the start of the “ber” months. I don’t know with you, but for me, there is something beautiful about this day. I always get excited with the thought that in just a few months, I’ll get to celebrate Christmas and New Year with the people close to my heart. Nonetheless, I also feel sentimental every 1st of September because it forces me to look back at how my previous eight months were.

For 2019, I have to say that my life from January to August of this year was another roller coaster ride.

• The year (January) started great, especially that I welcomed it with my loved ones.
• February was also a good month — it was full of love, giggles, and smiles.
• March was a hectic one, coupled with a constant feeling of anxiety as I wait for the results of whether I’ll graduate in law school or not.
• April was a month of success and proud moments — it was such a relief to finally get a Juris Doctor degree and dedicate such achievement to my parents.
• May was a beautiful month — I celebrated my birthday.
• June was a month of meaningful endings and beautiful beginnings — I left Davao and flew to Manila where I will be staying for the next six months for the Bar Exam 2019 review.
• July was an inspiring month — I wake up everyday feeling excited to open a book and engrossed myself with the study of the law.
• August was a challenging month — I feel burned out, and most of the time, I don’t want to study at all.

As I look back to these months, I feel mixed emotions – mostly immense gratefulness. It has been an incredible journey. Even if there were days of doubts and self-limiting thoughts, I still got up every day and decided to enjoy the gift of life.

Now that it’s already September, I am starting to feel terrified. It means that the first Sunday of the bar is just two months or nine weeks away from today. Am I ready to take it? Am I close to finishing my first reading assignments? Can I still hold myself together for the remaining days of the review?

It means that the first Sunday of the bar is just two months or nine weeks away from today. Am I ready to take it? Am I close to finishing my first reading assignments? Can I still hold myself together for the remaining days of the review?

Most importantly, will I ever pass the bar exam for 2019? God knows how much I claim “YES” as the answer to all these questions. And because of this, I refuse to give up. Whenever I want to quit and stop, I will make an effort to think of my parents over and over again because I offer this journey to them. I am exhausted, but I will keep going.

Today is the first day of September and I choose to keep my hopes up. I hope you do too. May the rest of 2019 bring us more answered prayers, fulfilled promises, and better days.